thank u

curse

curse

hay nakupo...

i hate this feeling...feeling of loneliness and sadness.... nakaka depress... huhuhu...

...hay naku po...i really don't know.... buti really like the guy... i am happy when i am

with him.... but i think i am feeling take the risk of being with him and be

used than not being with him and not able to see him.....

i really like this feeling... dear god... pls release me from this emotion... i really can't move on

but i am jealous when i see him with other guy..... here comes this curse again that i feel if

the guy really like u or not i think the other guy likes him because he keeps on inviting him

into some study.... craze stuff... which jealous me... hay naku... i really like to move on i have

a lot of plans in my life.. and having a relationship or a bf will not part of it....

i hope to move on from this curse..... pls lord help me god...go back on track, just like before

.............

hay.................. i am so sad parang feeling ko isang opportunity na naman ang pina lampas ko....

i am sorry.............

keep doing the same thing never learn from may past mistake....

dear lord i am tired na po.....

the last thing i prayed don't let me fall in love

which is the same opposite of what i gate.... i am tired na po....

tried of fighting feeling that everyday is at war,

fighting for everything............. pagod na po ako.... please... lord take me emotions........ or u could take me na..... i can go back to the hands of time i am willing to switch places with my date last sept11 of 2009.........

....

Sam Milby
Each Passing Night lyrics

Didn't we share each other's dreams
We held each other tight
Ang tears fell fromm my eyes
As you walked and left me here
Like the wind you passed me by
I try but I can't see
If it's something that I said

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/sam_milby/#share

dear Lord God:

Dear Lord God:

please, guide me, and please let me choose the right and correct company for me, a company that will make me stay for a few years and a company that will allow me to grow my career plans,

i need a company that offers big and fabulous salary and benefits, i need cash, i mean cash at this point for m,y health, for my mom and for my sister and for me daily needs and for my saving,

saving that will let me save me and my family in the future.

please, let me choose the right me, is this GBR the right one or not or is that cvg or logica or hp, pls lord gave me a sign and please lord, i know you know what i am thnking please please please......... i badly need your help.

OMG

litong lito na ko sa buhay ko... promised, super, di ko alam kung mag sign ako ng JO o hindi,

scenario

1. pag hindi ako nag sign sayang yung opportunity, baka di na ko makapasa na service desk ulit,

2. marami naman ibang help desk o service desk post kaso di ako sure kung ma hired ako

3. pag nag sign ako, ligtas na ko sa termination at sa suspension sa current company ko dahil sa rev gen performance

4. kaya nag lamg pag nag sign ako, diluted yung salary ko sa benefits ko, kaya ng nag apply ka na service desk para lumaki salary mu di para muliit,

5. calls pa rin, more calls daw, hay...... kala ko calls and a little back office yun......

6. pag nag sign ako, absent ko sa first day of training kasi may 21 daw ang start ng training kaso may concert ako sa may 21 na pupuntahan,

7. i really don't know na what to do with this,

8. if i sign ligtas na ako sa termination kaso liliit salary and benefits ko pero mag kakaroon na ko ng experience sa service desk post, anu na ba talaga ang gagawin ko, di ko na alam, promised!

ang buhay parang cheese pag na mali ka ng move lagot ka, you can't turn back teh hands of time to undo it, you can only push ur self to the limits and do a damage control and learn from that mistakes,

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just one wrong move on the cheese of life and you will loose,

i don't know what to do, please Lord God help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sheet...... i will be terminated in a few weeks
weeks 1- pag walang benta -verbal warning
week 2 -pag walang benta -written warning
week 3 -pag walang banta -1day suspension
week 4 -pag walang benta -3days suspension
week 5 -pag walang benta -5day suspension
week 6 -pag walang benta TERMINATION

everybody knows naman na in a bpo companies its all about the numbers
i haven't talk to any lawyers yet about the new contact i think the group of agent that will be expelled in the company can fight for their right thru NLRC,

anyway medyo mahirap ma attain yung score card for sales kasi ang promised nila before is that we have a sale but its not hardcire selling kaya pumayag ako sa ganitong set up but right now it seems like na HARDCORE SELLING ITO kahit KIDNEY i bebenta ko sa customer mag ka sales lang 9RPC is kindda high,

RPC is computed thru number of sales vs number of calls vs amount that u sell to the customers

the management is asking us (agent to hit 9RPC goals which is impossible di nga ako nakaka 4 RPC 9 pa kaya... before may month na medyo marami ako bensta i think that was jan or feb i think i have 6 sales but may RPC is still at around 2+ % lang... hay....

welll, well, well........... i don't know how to strategized on this one..... plus yung mga compny na i tried to apply to eh di pa nag rereply... hay naku po at walan pa rin kasiguraduha....hay naku po... the only think i can say is help me god and fight fight fight.................

don't expect

Never get too attached to anyone because attachments lead to expectations and expectations lead to disappointment...

And disappointments lead to misery!

And that what i am right now!

MISERABLE!

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i really like this line from my friends fb post.... sakto skin.... tagos... hanggang kaluluwa.... ouch!

sheeeeet na april month

hi naku po i am so so so sad and frustrated

lahat na ata ng kamalasan nakuha ko na this month

2x bagsak sa interview at yung isa dahil sa current contract ko

kasi may non compete clause.... so i can't apply sa ibang bpo comp

for a year... with is really shitty... i am almost there na...

di ko naka punta dun sa isa kung intrw kasi sabi ng guy that i used

to date eh... pangit ayun naniwala naman ako... hay naku sayang yung opportunity

then this used to date guy... nag da drama sa txt na he is inlove sa some na di pusit

at nag sex sila unprotected...

what do expect from me.... a charo santos comment na go on with it i wil support u

gurl... it hurts ha... really

hurt....

at yung isa kung intrvw bagsak talaga hirap ng exam... sayang lang kasi effort mu puyat na

puyat ka tapos... pupunta ka sa intrw then direcho sa work

another one na kinaiinis ko ay yung metrics ko sa office puro bagsak... shit since last month it on a downhill tapos mag change pa ko ng sked next wik kasi i will be enroll sa isang training para sa mga agent na di maka benta...hay shit talaga.. i ask our manager what will happen if we failed sa training ang sagot sakit lets cross the bridge when we get there.......

tapos sa office pa rin di ko makapag lateral transfer sa IT which ios really weird kasi i tried all ways... i even informed my supervisor pero sabi ng mag ka team ko parang ayaw ko palayasin sa team.. w/c is another shit again..... hello internal recruitment ang dami ko ng resume na pinadala di nyo punapansin

one funny thing i informed my lead na mag apply ko ang sabi ko hiring nakita ko sa jobstreet ang sabi ba naman skin eh wala daw sa internal email.... hay naku... yung friend ko naman na saibi padalhan ko g internal email mali mali email ang binibigay... hay.. naku.... tapos ang hirap mag enroll ng dependent sa HMO... fuck the process.. feeling ko kasi may sakit mom ko di lng ang sasabi kasi nag txt skin about HMO card ng dependents which is the first time na they informed me about it...... hay.... i really hate his month

so much bad news at yung mag effort ko wlang nag yari.... at almost lahat ng bad news ko dahil sa tahana... shet na na lang as in sheet........................ sheeet................ sheeeet.........!!!!!